Tuesday, April 29, 2014
I'm so lost I don't know what to do. Has anyone had so much go wrong all at once that your so lost and confused? You can only see the problem(s) your facing that don't know where to even begin fixing these issues. OMG my mind is so clouded with negativity that I can't think straight to come up with a solution. Which of course makes me even more angry. Any suggestions? I've tried asking someone for suggestions someone nuetrual with a clear perspective. I've tried taking a wusaw moment, deep breath, music etc. Guess what nothing works. I've tried praying about it I guess the only thing else left to do is wait on the Lord and have faith.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
OMG I'M A SINGLE MOM! I remember while growing up i would saying to myself "i would never treat my kids this way"- when ever I would get in trouble, but after having my 1st child, (at 17) I've apologized to my mother for EVERYTHING i had put her through. No joke, I'd never anticipated what I had coming in the very near future. I work, i'm trying to finish school,while being a single mom and it is totally overwhelming. I don't care what anyone, says its absolutely stressful. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about being a single mom just stating how I feel. I love my boys to death but gosh!!!, sometimes that priceless moment of alone time or just one minute to myself seems rare . There are a lot of single moms out there that have support( which I envy )but there are also single moms like myself that has little or no support and it really sucks BIG TIME. My friends just don't understand and its hard to relate to them like I use to. I mean I've actually drifted away or lost a friend or two because I can't hang out or do things like I use to and they just don't get it, has that ever happened to you? I mean working 40 hours a week, school and having to make dinner, bathe and spend time with my kids makes me exhausted by 10. Not exactly usual for a 24 year old- you would think. But everyday I thank God for my boys, and the hardships that I've gone through that have made me the better person I am today. I know that i have much more to endure and so much more to learn;-So I take it one day at a time and try my best not to sweat the small stuff ;).