Thursday, November 10, 2011

1st time blogging

OMG I'M A SINGLE MOM! I remember while growing up i would saying to myself "i would never treat my kids this way"- when ever I would get in trouble, but after having my 1st child, (at 17) I've apologized to my mother for EVERYTHING i had put her through. No joke, I'd  never anticipated what I had coming in the very near future. I work, i'm trying to finish school,while being a single mom and it is totally overwhelming. I don't care what anyone, says its absolutely stressful. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining about being a single mom just stating how I feel. I love my boys to death but gosh!!!, sometimes that priceless moment of alone time or just one minute to myself seems rare . There are a lot of single moms out there that have support( which I envy )but there are also single moms like myself that has little or no support and it really sucks BIG TIME. My friends just don't understand and its hard to relate to them like I use to. I mean I've actually drifted away or lost a friend or two because I can't hang out or do things like I use to and they just don't get it, has that ever happened to you? I mean working 40 hours a week, school and having to make dinner, bathe and spend time with my kids makes me exhausted by 10. Not exactly usual for a 24 year old- you would think. But everyday I thank God for my boys, and the hardships that I've gone through that have  made me the better person I am today. I know that i have much more to endure and so much more to learn;-So I take it one day at a time and try my best not to sweat the small stuff ;).